Monday, October 27, 2008

commentary on love

let us say in passing, to be blind and to be loved, is in fact -on this earth where nothing is complete- one of the most strangely exquisite forms of happiness. to have continually at your side a woman, a girl, a sister, a charming being, who is there because you need her, and because she cannot do without you, to know you are indispensable to someone necessary to you, to be able at all times to measure her affection by the degree of her presence that she gives you, and to say to yourself: she dedicates all her time to me, because i possess her whole love; to see the thought if not the face; to be sure of the fidelity of one being in a total eclipse of the world; to imagine the rustling of her dress as the rustling of wings; to hear her moving to and fro, going out, coming in, talking, singing, and to think that you are the cause of those steps, those words, that song; to show your personal attraction at every moment; to feel even more powerful as your infirmity increases; to become in darkness, and by reason of darkness, the star around which this angel gravitates; few joys can equal that. the supreme happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved; loved for ourselves -say rather, loved in spite of ourselves; this conviction the blind have. in their calamity, to be served is to be caressed. are they deprived of anything? no. light is not lost where love enters. and what a love! a love wholly founded in purity. there is no blindness where there is certainty. the soul gropes in search of a soul, and finds it. and that soul, found and proven, is a woman. a hand sustains you, it is hers; lips lightly touch your forehead, they are her lips; you hear breathing near you, it is she. to have her wholly, from her devotion to her pity, never to be left alone, to have that sweet shyness as your aid, to lean on that unbending reed, to touch Providence with your hands and be able to grasp it in your arms; God made palpable, what transport! the heart, that dark celestial flower, bursts into a mysterious bloom. you would not give up that shade for all the light in the world! the angel soul is there, forever there; if she goes away, it is only to return; she fades away in dream and reappears in reality. you feel an approaching warmth, she is there. you overflow with serenity, gaiety, and ecstasy; you are radiant in your darkness. and the thousand little cares! the trifles that are enormous in this void. the most ineffable accents of the womanly voice used to comfort you, and replacing for you the vanished universe! you are caressed through the soul. you see nothing, but you feel yourself adored. it is a paradise of darkness.

-victor hugo "les miserables"

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